Archive for March, 2010

BRN TO CLOSE (This post is all over the place, sorry)

Posted in BRN NEWS on March 25, 2010 by Matty

Well everyone, I think my eyes are sore with tears. This is attempt number 42, lets see if I can word this right.

I came to Second Life with a goal, that goal was simple. “Make friends, and not be lonely.” I think I achieved this goal, and yet… I feel like I haven’t met it all these years on. Maybe I am demanding to much from my friends, but I truly hope you forgive me. Despite how many of you have shared your love and support, even fund-raising to buy me a laptop to help keep me coming back to Second Life,  I feel so lonely.

These last few months have been to much, I am dragging myself on the ground to move just constantly in tears. I am spending sometimes up to 16 hours staring at my computer screen waiting for messages from people, anyone… just a hello… just a how are you. These messages never come… and the messages for requests of content and objects, are also constantly making me feel used. I don’t feel like anyone remembers me as a person.

So yes my departure from Second Life is selfish, but sometimes we have to think of ourselves first.

As said earlier I have been in Second Life since its beta, I have seen so many changes. Its hard to imagine that we only hit 1 million users on October 18th. Now look at that population. I am truly impressed with what SL has become, but at the same time I am also saddened. Linden Lab as a corporation is distancing itself from the community, to the point where… I truly believe there is no community voice in the decisions they are making, that they are putting on a show after already making the decisions and the meetings are nothing more than public relations exercises to give an impression of caring.

I know this is not the first time I have planned my departure but I am tired. I think I truly hate SL, I mean really HATE it. With the new emerald viewer you can’t even hide from friends without them knowing. The new beta viewer is outside my userbility and I am just to tired, I can’t do it anymore.

I am sorry everyone who I hurt with this decision, I have been dragging myself around for months in fear of how to do this but theres just no other way to say it. I hate what SL has become, and as much as I love you all. I can’t commit to being here.

I have known so many of you for so long however, and because of that, if you require my contacts to get hold of me outside SL. I will be more than willing to give those to people I trust. I have been truly blessed by my experiences in Second Life, and I love you all so much. Without you all I would not be alive today, and I truly mean that. You all have pulled me through so much.

Will post more as I figure it all out.

(Attempt 43)

~Love LilMatty
~BRN Owner